Things did not end great lately...
First thing first, family is complicated.
Things did not work out well between me and my sister.
Things did not work out well between me and my father.
See, I think I hurt the people I love the most more than I hurt the people that I hate.
I didn't mean to hurt any of you...really
but sometimes things just got out of control.
You see sista, have it cross your mind why that I keep my mouth shut when we are arguing?
You know why sista?
Because I don't wanna argue.
It's pointless.
It's useless.
But that action of mine made you think that I don't want to admit that I am wrong.
Why sista you have to think that way? Why can't you think positively?
When I was stress before, the first person I wanna call is you.
I called you, but do you remember what you said that time?

"Erm...I can't talk to you now. I have so much work. Can you call later? I'm doing my presentation and I dont wanna be disturbed"

I was devastated.Do you know how I feel at that time?
Do you care? Do you even care?
See. family is complicated.
either I am the one who make it complicated or the other way I just don't know.

Second thing, I have many things in my mind that I'm scared if things did not work out fine.
Thesis is horribleee. I dont have any data. I am stuck. This is nightmare.I need to submit Research paper on march and I dont have a thing. This is scary. I keep thinking of thesis EVERY TIME.
either when I am sleeping, eating, etc...thesis is on MY MIND.
I think I'm going crazy.
Yeah, I starting to talk with myself more than I talk with people.
Man, I am really going crazy.
owh FML.
I'm gonna sleep.
If I can.