It's 30th April and tomorrow it's may. Time flies and no nearly 7 months I work as a research assistant here. Things are getting well and my experiments are getting well too. Except now I need to do lots of readings cuz the characterization part is coming non stop.

I go back home last week. And do you realize that, when we were teenagers, we were very eager to get out of the house? and then when we are working, staying outside, we would really want to go back home? I looked at my parents..they are getting old. I wish I could be with them all the time because I dont want to regret if anything happens to them. I give mom some money every month and last week she said, she dont  want to use my money and she keeps the money for saving instead. She refused actually to receive the money but I told mom,although it's not much but please let me train myself to be responsible. Please let me train myself to be responsible to you. I want to train myself so that when you're old, I would not leave you.

During Konvensyen bidadari dunia yg lalu,

"If you feel complete, no need to show off"

If you feel happy, no need to show off.

Doesn't mean I'm sad when I am quiet.
I am happy, I just wanna keep it to myself.

You can laugh out loud, trying to tell me you are  one happy person.
But hey, I got your point.

But let just be humble. :D

UPM Open April 2012

 Yes, I am no #17 again. Finally 

Dopple Cafe saturday :D

 Rosevelt

 Narmi

NArmi

Dear a friend of mine,

I am so sorry if you don't like me to be friend with A. You see, she is not what you always think. She is very kind. I remembered during our form 5 years, where i cracked my ankle during netball, she was the one who care about me. She bought me foods cuz I cant go to the canteen. She stays with me when I was in "emergency room" at boarding school. She accompanied me for few nights in the emergency room so that I will not be alone. I remember every bits of it.

Dear friend of mine,

It is really sad to see that you judge her. It is really sad to see that you don't know her kindness.
You will always be my friend, both of you

Hello hello~~ Morning monday! semalam balik rumah and abangngah balik bawak amsyar! pastu mlm dia bawak gi alamanda pastu dia ckp, amik satu barang. tak kisah kedai apa, harga berapa. tapi satu brg je. okayyyyy straight gi kedai nike sbb mmg tgh cari kasuttt kasutt nike lama dah uzuurrrr then kt kedai nike takda design baru.so pegi kedai al-ikhsan and i found this beauttyyy!

dari pandangan atas ececececece *yg benda dlm kasut tu still tak keluarkan lagi ahaha*

dari pandangan tepi ecececececece

sebenarnya tak suka sgt ada line hitam kt bawah tu mcm kasut skolah. tp most of design baru ada tu maybe nk tarik remaja kot but hey! 1st time beli kasut tak payah tgk harga! pilih-pilih

alhamdulillah, syukur rezeki!

Thank you, buddy

thank you buddy~ you told me several times you are not creative but hey this is pretty! thank you!

First Stage Yayasan Khazanah Interview Watan Scholarship

Hello, everyone~

Well, yesterday I got an interview (1st stage) with yayasan khazanah(yk) scholarship. At first, I thought it was an interview but actually it was an IQ test.

Overall for 1 hr and 30 mins, we have 5 sections, divided into: Reasoning, Analytical, Logical, Abstract and Numerical. If i'm not mistaken...

The tests are tense actually. Speed and accuracy is the most important things. You gotta be quick and the time will not be on your side. Seriously

The questions is easy, average and hard. So as you go through the questions, you'll find it harder and you need more time but hell~i left couples of questions blank dont have much time actually.

this is the odyssey hall in Mercu UEM near KL sentral

the person in charge was really really strict. if they told you to stop writing, you better stop. if not they will dismiss you. Yeah for real

well i dunno about my marks..we'll see about that. *urghhhh after balik terus collapse!*

Nisha in the house`

This morning, I went to the post office to open an ASB account :D actually I planned to open public mutual trust fund. but the starting payment to open an account is $1000 and then $100 minimum per month. But I dont have that kind of cash. So i thought of opening a ASB first then save bit by bit until it is enough to open a Trust Fund.It's not alot at the moment but I will try saving bit by bit till I reach the trust fund. And, if there is anything happens to me, I want mom to received my account. But anyway, alhamdulillah ya Allah for the rezeki~insyaAllah, I wanna keep this constant. And I need to save money for a conference this december. it's around $550. Seniors say we can claim back from the faculty but we have to pay first. So, hopefully I can reach my target. Need to be really berjimat-cermat for upcoming several months.

I just got back home actually. tak mandi mmg busuk nieh~I met Ain, she belanja me sushi king~ we never got tired with sushi haha thank you for the treat and thank you once again for the souveniers from singapore~

Last tuesday, I met sofwah! yeah she called me asking if I'm free that night. She was thinking of having dinner together because it have been a long time since we seen each other. We had our dinner at Ayamas chicken rice. And we talked alot really alot. It was interesting and I miss her already...:[ hopefully we can meet again someday..insyaAllah

i was browsing my notes on FB and I remember there is one note that I have private it. It's a poem. I got this on the internet and i tagged Linisha. it dated 14th october 2009. so here you go

Time, sometimes the time just slips away
And you're left with yesterday
Left with the memories
I, I'll always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time
I had you with me
Though we go our seperate ways
I won't forget so don't forget
the memories we made

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
and you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
while we were wild and free
Please remember, please remember me

Goodbye, there's just no sadder word to say
And it's sad to walk away
with just the memories
Who's to know what might have been
We'll leave behind a life and time
I'll never know again

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
and you were there for me
And remember, Please remember me

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
While we were wild and free
Then remember, please remember me

And how we laugh and how we smile
And how this heart was yours and mine
and how a dream was out of reach
I stood by you, you stood by me
We took each day and made it shine
We wrote our names across the sky
We ride so fast, we ride so free
And I knew that you had me

Please remember, please remember

I realized lately I don't write a lot. Yeah I am too lazy and nothing interesting ongoing. I blogwalking, I enjoy reading other people blogs. They have been true to themselves. Expressing their emotional feeling. Sometimes, when I read the posts, I can actually feel what the writer's feeling. Emotions are funny things. Perhaps, if we can somehow connect our feelings to others, the world would be in chaos.

It's hard for me to write whatever I want on MY BLOG. 'Freedom of writing' does not apply on me. Expressing emotions are limited. Long ago, some "people" would stalk my blog and when they Think that the posts are related to them, they will msg me, sms me telling me all sorts of things including all the insults.

After some time, I step back. These kind of people would always watch what you are writing and I dont want to create another mess. Enough is enough. So that's why most of my posts are pictures without the words. There are lots of drafts here in my blog where I couldn't post.

But I kept my old blog. I like to read back my posts where I wrote long posts and my expressions are genuine, I think so. But it's kinda sad also when I re-read post about my friend's wedding few years back how I was so happy for her but she got divorced. This is kinda sad.

But I want to write.Writings where I will not hurt others. I've sin enough. I know I'm going to hell anyway, but let's not make more.

so see ya hopefully I will be more semangat to write!

Well today I'm going to uitm again..because there are some problems with my sample...sgt pena each time gi uitm aiyo

[1] NEVER EVER look down on others. They might be far better than you

[2] NEVER take for granted the caring of other people towards you. You might won't hear from them again.

[3] In life, even if you need help, and the person you always help ignore you, NEVER ever repeat what they did to you. Help them. Even it is not sincere, at least you did care.

[4] Take lessons from bad experiences. If you keep falling for that, you didn't learn at all.

[5] NEVER let others decide what you want to do next, in life or in whatever decision except God, your parents and yourself. They might not put themselves in your shoes.