#118

Aku dah lama tak blog walking blog ini: http://telordibasuh.blogspot.com/
tadi aku blogwalking aku dpt tau owner blog ini telah meninggal dunia. Terkejut gak. Moga Arwah ditempatkan di tempat orang2 yg beriman. Amin.

Dunia blogger telah hilang satu blogger...Mati itu pasti, cuma waktu tu kita tak tau. :'(

#117

--Esok ada interbiu--

*whaaatttt??? dah berapa byk kali interbiu niehh??? and yet, you rejected all the offers beforree??? what the heck are you planning huh ily??*

Well, they the one who called me at the first place la kan and talk talk talk and want to interview meh. so better I show up, and then reject cara baik rather than tak show up kan?

*I wanna buy pisau lipat tomorrow in case of anything effing bad happens*

#116

Kenapa tempat kejeku sgt aweeesomee!

1. Bos aku mmg jaga air muka pekerja. tak penah sekali kot bos aku marah aku kat depan customer walaupun aku wat dier marah giler. If dier nak tegur, dia akan tarik ko gi belakang citer.
2. Bos aku cool giler sbb menjaga perhubungan bos dgn pekerja. Time keje mmg keje kena kasik all out but at the same time dier akan care. Tanya kalau penat gi belakang mkn dulu, ok ke tak camtuh. Serius, she is the first boss yg aku rasa amat ngam.
3. Aku banyak pecahkan pinggan mangkok, cawan, gelas dan terbaru kaca apa tah. Bos aku akan mencarut tp dier tak penah maki2 aku sbb kejadian pecah2 nieh. Maki belakang tak tau la tp dier mmg akan tenang dan ada satu masa tuh siap gelakkn aku sbb aku pecahkan mangkok apa tah.
4. Team kat tempat kerja aku sgt hebat! Walaupun aku jarak taun dgn mereka 1-2 thn bagi yg muda and ada byk makcik2 tp serius aku syg makcik2 kat situ. Aku pandang diaorg lagi tinggi dari diri aku. Ada penah satu masa tu kitaorg ada meeting, and ada mkn2 nasik lemak. Macam biasa aku tak tahan pedas, and aku tnya auntie pakiam, "pedas kan?" then dier ckp, "tuhan sudah kasi saya rezeki, macamna pun saya tak boleh komplen" waktu tu hanya Allah je tau betapa malunya aku n betapa tulusnya hati dier. And ada satu masa tu, aku dah lama tak keje then terjumpa auntie lagi sorg, terus dier peluk cium aku tnya mana pegi dah lama tak nampak. aku rasa terharu giler..walaupun aku agama lain tp diaorg tak kesah..
5. Boss aku senang kasik aku kuar gi solat. Ni paling aku suka. Before tempat aku keje, susah giler nk kuar solat. tp kat setelah keje lebih 10 bulan kt sini, dier dah tau asal aku sengih2 cam kerang busok tu nk mintak kuar solat la tuh
6. Apa lagi aaa oh dier mmg tolerant kalau ko tolerant. Kalau nk wat jadual sendiri leh, dier watkan jadual pun boleyh. 2 ways.

Ok ini sahaja yg dpt aku ingat. Ok ini pulak yg kena wat:

• Reference letter? *Check! Dua-dua dah dpt skng kena scan ref letter, scan sijil spm and hantar kat agen!*
• Hari ini prof jojo kasik laddu sempena dier blk dari india thank u thank u
  

Wohoo! naseb baik jumpa prof hari nieh sbb maybe tomorrow dier gi US naseb baek naseb baek
Can't wait for Graduation day~~I wanna throw what is that thing call?? the hat??whatever lah I wanna throw the hat and jump in front of DTC! hehehe

#115

Selamat pagi semua kepada pembaca blog yg diundang dan tidak diundang *you know who~*
semalam wa mimpi lu. wa tak tau knp tapi wa mimpi lu. Lu mimpi wa tak?

#114

ok...hari ini penat sgt..shift patut dari pukul 3pm-9pm but extend 3pm-1030pm..tak da rehat wokeyh non stop..mkn pada pkul 8 pm wokeyh so imagine mkn lunch pkl 12++ camtuh pukul lapan bru mkn siket je..so basically blk keje mmg takda selera mkn..and naw perut meragam

adoyai perot, nk cirit-birit, cirit-birit je lah..jgn la cucuk2, sakit giler nieh. so actually tgh carik 2nd job coz..agaknya dah bosan kot keje nieh...
k nite.seyes sakit prot

#113

Baru sejam lebih balik keje. tak tau plak skng kedai tutup pkul 1030pm! whaaat??? nyesal plak ckp ngan bos nk closingg je aduhhhh kalau terlepas bus mmg menapak la gamaknya

actually just an advice for me and for you, wherever you go, jgn pandang orang lain sebelah mata. bukan apa, respect everybody.even dier makcik basuh pinggan, even dier tukang sapu sampah, just respect.

jangan pkir kamu sorg educated tinggi2 kamu boleh pandang rendah kt orang laen. kadang2 kamu tak tahu entah2 org itu lagi tinggi sahsiah dari kamu. okay lah kamu pakai baju cantik2, kitaorg pakai uniform je tp remember, don't judge a person by their appearance.

so, jgn pandang orang lain sebelah mata. okeyh hari ini aku terjumpa sorang kawan..and dier ada ckp pasal tudung..and aku tersedar uniform aku masuk tudung kt dalam..so..aku jadik serba salah.paham tak?paham ke tidak? ish ish ish aku rasa aku kena berfikir kembali semula *kembali tu sama kah dgn semula?*

Rindu ah nk welding balik haha

#112

Okeyh actually memula nk cantikkn blog. Pegi kt blogskins cantik mmg cantik tp side bar dier mmg banyak masalah ok mmg tak reti
then gi kt pyzam mmg plain giler last2 guna blogger punya
Conclusion, mmg tak reti nk decorate blog inieh!

Okeyh esok keje so kena bersemangat! semangat semangat semangat!!
kumpul duet kumpul duet kumpul duet! walau lutut sakit! hahaha!

Kejadian hari ini (erk..semalam):

Hantar application keje sbg tukang masak (iye tak silap taip wokeyh tukang masak) " Saya tgk qualification awak ni tinggi sgt untuk kerja ini" whaaaat???? Wa nak skills, wa x nk keje taip kt pejabaatt

"Nak technician tak? ada kosong" "x moh la kang dier suh btol paip kang laen plak jadiknye"

I just read an article from this entry http://sarahshukor.com/2011/05/13/13-tahun-mencari-cinta/

'13 tahun mencari cinta' sweet and full of islamic sense. Patience, Allah will give when you are ready.

Afterparty

Colloqium Dinner

#111

Alright this is a list of things that I must do as soon as possible~InsyaAllah, with Allah's help and the strength given, I'll be able to do this! yeah!

[1] Prof Jojo will be back in Malaysia on 30th May 2011. So, I'll collect my reference letter on that day. The 2nd reference letter will be notified from Prof Zambri. So, so far only one letter confirmed. The 2nd letter need to follow up~

[2] I'll be working at Dominos in the meanwhile. After all the interview, I found...let's not talk about it. But the bittersweet of it will be remembered. Imma work work work!

[3] Need to study IELTS more more more.remember ily, "lapang sebelum sempit". Revise while you still have time. DOn't wait until last minute!

Erm..okay, and here are my results (unofficial):

• Elementary particle Physics = A
• Final Year Project = A
• Spanish = A
• Science and Technology = B+

And for Science and Tech, I have discussed with the lecturer and hopefully he can help me with the grade cuz I need to maintain my PNGK. Alhadulillah, thank you Allah for the rezeki~

I remembered telling Nora that I got 'A' in spanish and she said :" wah nanti ko cakap berhabuk la yee" hahahhaha

So, hasta manana!

What do you call for a person who is happy on others downturn?
I can't remember it.

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THAN YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU

And stop reading my blog. You know who you are.

#111

well..i got that job..but I told him, I'll give him my answer on Wednesday..
I don't know how did I pulled the interview..
And tomorrow I got another interview.
And as usual, not motivated at all
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see ya [0.o]

#109

I have an interview tomorrow..
And I am not prepared at all..
Wth.
I am not motivated at all right now.
Should I iron my clothes now..or tomorrow?
..
What will be the questions in the interview?
Hrm... will I pass?
Huh?

(-_________-) ---> this is my face right now hehe

formspring.me

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/ilysyuhada

#108

I just asked Mr Mahadzir bout my spanish and....
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and I got A! Alhamdulillah~~Thank you, Allah~

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Alhamdulillah~~
Me so hepi~

#107

Prof Sithi: Do what you want, do what you like the most. Find your passion. Follow your heart because it knows what you want the most.

Me: but some say that following your heart is stupid.

Prof Sithi: If you follow your heart, of course the troubles will come. But your strength will too.
......
Me: Do you have any regrets?

Prof Sithi: You know, I got two offers when I want to do my PhD. One is from Imperial College and the other is Oxford. At that time, I chosed Oxford because it is more glamor than Imperial *laughing* If I have chosed Imperial at that time, I might be a different person right now. But NOW, I'm still good. I am living proof. I'm still ok and I had good memories in Oxford too. I have no regret.

I like chatting with azraful~coz he looks things at different perspectives~ and he is soooo honest and funneh!

Like this one: "so wake up kn that mothafcuka lah" hahahahhah
can't stop smiling and giggling! oh azraful!

Alhamdulillah~I just saw my result for Elementary Particle Physics and...
I GOT A!
Yeay! Alhamdulillah!!

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Now waiting for grades of project, snt and spanish

Heartiology by Sol

This hollow space,
Just like the winds.
In complete blindness; but reachable.

This picture of memory,
Just like the old gramophone.
Beautiful music; but it's getting old.

#103

Alright.today I registered for IELTS...huuuuu $570...my driver's license fee...huuuuu but nevertheess! good thing today---- I met my old skoolmate after 9 years, Mona Karini!

Short chit chat is not enough! we should meet again, Mona! *I'll upload the pics later la now tired*


P/s: it's already 6 years, can I say hello once again?? (^^)/

#102

Alright, Spanish was tough tough tough!!!
but----wohooooo exam is overrr~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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Now waiting for graduation day!!

#101

snt paper....oh my...I don't know weather I can score...Oh God....*speechless*

#100th post

Birdy – Skinny Love

Come on skinny love just last the year
Pour a little salt we were never here
My my my – my my my – my my my my – my my …
Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer

I tell my love to wreck it all
Cut out all the ropes and let me fall
My my my – my my my – my my my my – my my …
Right in the moment this order’s tall

I told you to be patient I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced I told you to be kind
In the morning I’ll be with you
But it will be a different kind
I’ll be holding all the tickets
And you’ll be owning all the fines

Come on skinny love what happened here
Suckle on the hope in lite brassiere
My my my – my my my – my my my – my my …
Sullen load is full so slow on the split

I told you to be patient I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced I told you to be kind
Now all your love is wasted then who the hell was I?
Cause now I’m breaking at the britches
And at the end of all your lines

Who will love you? who will fight?
And who will fall, far behind?

Come on skinny love ……..

Is listening Spritz over and over again. Wish I can see them performing live again....

Review of 1st paper-Elementary Particle Physics

Well well~~ Elementary Particle Physics is overr~~So ni review:

Soalan [1] pasal derive Klein-Gordon equation then limit dier. Yang ni mcm yakin okey la pastu dier mintah Dirac's equation..ok ini mmg blur2x hwa hwa hwa tulis je apa yg ingttt (-.-) pastu dier mintk explain Feyman diagram about QuantumElectroDynamics (QED).K macam boley makan soklan neh.pastu dier suruh bezakan classical and relativistic particle..ni ingat suam2 kuku. tapi citer gak la pasal de broglie wavelength and last dier suh carik de broglie wavelength. so rasa mcm ada kena mengena soklan dua nieh.

Soalan [2]. By using conservation of laws, determine weather these reaction is possible.Dier kasi 6 reactions. ok semua impossible except one reaction. at first, aite suma reaction tak impossible???????ragu2 gak la tp yakin kan diri haha
And then distinguish between real and virtual particles k ni soklan boleh makan punye then dier kasi 6 lagi reaction untuk check possibility dgn gunakan strangeness. boleh la makan. then last dier minta unique features in weak interaction.k ini ...ini... waaaa separuh je ingatttttt takpe2 dah lepasss

then soklan [3] agak psycho. first dier mintak explain quark model and the mcmana quark can overcome the violation of Pauli's exclusion principle hehehhee ini soklan feverettt hehehe and then define quark confinement ngan asymptotic freedom ok ini boleh makan siket then soalan killleerrr:

How do we explain the co-existance of above conflicting concepts for quark and gluon?

................................................k takda idea...jadi kena la mencarut kat jawapan..seyes tak pasti jawapan betul ke tak tp goreng2 pasal gluon la hopefully dapat markah siket.
lepas tuh dier mintak lukis beta decay nyer feynman diagram fuuuhhh naseb baek tgk gakkk benda niehhh and last dier tnya pasal Deep Inelastic Scattering..k ini punya jawappan pendek je tp markah kt tepi 20 markah...tak tau la cukup ke tak

So overall, pilih soklan [1], [2], and [3]. ok kenapa tak pilih soklan [4] dan [5]?
soklan 4 mmg seksa giler. dier suh explain pasal solar neutrinos--> SEYES TAK BACA LANGSUNG! but neutrino oscillation and string theory ada baca tp tak leh la nk risk kat situ

soklan 5, 1st dier suh classify baryon and meson octet. k ini aku boleh jawab, konpim. then dier mintak explain generation of quark, lepton and force carrier. k ini konpim boleh jawap. then dier tnya gauge invariance, ni pun boleh jawab. tp..tp...tp soklan last ni pengiraan dlm tutorial and tak ingat langsunngggg! and dier bwk 30 markah.
mmg agak berbelah bahagi la sama ada jawap soklan 1 atau 5. if amik soklan 5 kena risk 30 markah sbb tak tau. tp soklan 1 at least stp jawapan ada markah siket. so decided amik soklan 1. final exam tak leh risk markah even siket pun.

and then last class td kitaorang kasik cenderahati kat Prof Jojo..sedey plak klas dah habis..inilah satu-satunya klas sem ni yg tak pernah ponteng kecuali masa observation hari tuh. the best lecturer I've ever met. serious, klas ni belajar bukan pasal exam tp pasal ilmu...sayangnya tak ramai lecturer mcm prof jojo....sob sob sob...

after this dier nk balik india..dier tak boleh sambung kontrak kt UM sbb2 tertentu...
Thank you, prof jojo..thank you for the knowledge. Thank you for the awesome class. Thank you for the awesome lecture. Thank you for the fun.

"Strange Class, Top Lecturer, Charm Students: Elementary Particle Physics Class, 2010/2011"

curik2 amik gambar masa tgh amik kertas~

Sofwah tersenyum gumbira~
Syed n linda pn tersenyum gumbira~
kanak2 riang!
Goodbye Prof Jojo~We will miss you! :(

Dear Mom,

Happy Mother's Day..I love you so so so so much. I'm sorry I can't go back home this week..Exams are on Mon, Tue and Wed..I know you would understand :)

Mom, I remembered when I got matriculation offer and I need to choose weather Physics or biology and you want me to do biology but...I chosed Physics. Sorry mom...I know you want one of your children in medic field and since Along and abangah already in engineering, the hope was on me and...I'm sorry that I deviated away from your choice. Sorry Mom but I can't stand biology mom. I can't memorize the text books haha

and remember when I called you telling that I scored 0% (ZERO!) in my 1st physics test in matriculation? haha sorry for that too haha

thank you mom for letting me to choose what I want when applying courses in univ. You always been a good supporter. I remember when you asked me, why I wanna take physics. And I said, I wanna be an astronomer~You laughed and at the same time said, it's your life, do what you like the most. And you asked me weather I can get a job out of it, and I said, I don't know yet. Astronomy in Malaysia is not so 'hebat' and insyaAllah rezeki masing2 sambil me ketawa kelat. but I want you to know mom, I'll work hard to support you even if I have to do 2 or 3 jobs, I'll take care of you, insyaAllah.

Sorry mom if I have a big mouth or in another word, bitch mouth. Sorry cuz I didn't realized that whatever actions you took, they are for my sake. Sorry for not looking at your point of view.

I'm still blur about my future, mom. But insyaAllah, I'll work it out. Oh, I printed out my thesis-hard cover especially just for you, to let you know: Mom! I've been waiting my whole life to do astronomy and walla!! thank you for the constant support!

So IndieYouthFeyst11's job is done so I now it's time to focus on my exams! So here are the pics!

With Celine~

With Zoey~

Awesome band~

Tasya's Ink!

Registration counter~

and yesterday, I hear the most awesome indie music I've heard. It's from Spritz but too bad I dont have their pics-only their vid though
So I bought 2 CD's: Beatburns and Spritz partial album.
and....I'm done.

Random and Monolog diri #5

Hola~it's 11:22 pm and listening to Redfm~
Tomorrow gotta be at pavilion at 9am for the indieyouthfest2011
I haven't been to pavi before...so I will drop at Bukit Bintang monorail and find my way to get there
shouldn't be too far according to some of my friends.

Alright excited right now~haha guess I need to see more new faces~
Sofwah wanna sign up for pra-pekerjaan *pre-employment* at UM..
think the programme duration is about a month waaa too long
Don't know yet wether want to join or not cuz I need to work work work and earn money to pay the rent, foods etc

I wanna be positive person like before. I realllyyyy want my old self back!
I wanna smileeeeeee whatever situation I'm in
I wanna live happily.

Monolog diri #5

No people can be right all the time.
We are no angel.
My heart is not bersih or suci.
My heart is dark.
I know it.
Muahahahahhahahahahahahhaha
*repair mode*
Gulp!

Seize The Day

AVENGED SEVENFOLD

Seize The Day

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day [x2 then continues in the background]
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home

So right now, despite the exams I am worried about what I'm gonna after exam.
I am finding a research assistant position in Phy Dept and mostly-----they are waiting for the grant in September!
haissshhhh I dont wanna work full time in Dominos!
I wanna work with the machines!
Meet new people!
New surroundings!
Arggghhhh this is killing meh!
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*patience plz ilyyyyy control your emoooo*
fuh *breath in*
fuuuhhh *breath out*
...
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ok so what's the plan??

lately, I blogwalking almost everyday. And I found one similarity. Most of them are BLOG SERIUS followers and most of them..they way they write are almost the same as Obe.

I don't know, maybe they read Obe blog so much that they have somehow 'assimilate' Obe's writing into their blog. Most of them.

Bloggers have somehow lost their originality.

Monolog diri #4

Monolog diri:
Kawanku pernah bertanya:
Kadang-kala, kepuraan itu baik dilakukan untuk menjaga hati?

Ya kadang - kadang.

Alasan munasabah: Menjaga silaturahim dan mengekalkan nya.

My Father Is a Simple Man

Luis Omar Salinas

I walk to town with my father

to buy a newspaper. He walks slower

than I do so I must slow up.

The street is filled with children.

We argue about the price

of pomegranates, I convince

him it is the fruit of scholars.

He has taken me on this journey

and it's been lifelong.

He's sure I'll be healthy

so long as I eat more oranges,

and tells me the orange

has seeds and so is perpetual;

and we too will come back

like the orange trees.

I ask him what he thinks

about death and he says

he will gladly face it when

it comes but won't jump

out in front of a car.

I'd gladly give my life

for this man with a sixth

grade education, whose kindness

and patience are true . . .

The truth of it is, he's the scholar,

and when the bitter-hard reality

comes at me like a punishing

evil stranger, I can always

remember that here was a man

who was a worker and provider,

who learned the simple facts

in life and lived by them,

who held no pretense.

And when he leaves without

benefit of fanfare or applause

I shall have learned what little

there is about greatness.

Mother to Son

Langston Hughes

Well, son, I'll tell you:

Life for me ain't been no crystal stair.

It's had tacks in it,

And splinters,

And boards torn up,

And places with no carpet on the floor --

Bare.

But all the time

I'se been a-climbin' on,

And reachin' landin's,

And turnin' corners,

And sometimes goin' in the dark

Where there ain't been no light.

So boy, don't you turn back.

Don't you set down on the steps

'Cause you finds it's kinder hard.

Don't you fall now --

For I'se still goin', honey,

I'se still climbin',

And life for me ain't been no crystal stair.

p/s: lately byk monolog diri.