Monolog diri #1

I've been thinking...how should I say...am I really following the path of Islam...
I saw Nora..I'm so proud of her..and malu sendiri at the same time.

Awal sem lepas, nora dah start pakai tudung labuh. dah tak pakai seluar. overall, I see a truly muslimah in her. Dia berubah, dah alhamdulillah sampai sekarang masih kekal.

Sometimes I wonder.... I keep questioning "what if?"..
People always said...what if I die before I achieve my dreams? What if I die before I serve my family?..but the truths..What if I die bila and tak sempat nk bertaubat? What if I die and tak sempat minta maaf dgn parents? what if I die and tak sempat nk cuci dosa2 besar semua?

What if..what if...what if...what if...on and on in my head..like spinning wheels..

Lately before I sleep.. I said " Ya Allah, aku maafkan segala dosa sesiapapun yg ada padaku, Kau lembutkan lah hati mereka untuk memaafkan ku"

Dear Allah, please take care mom and dad everytime I'm not around or when I'm away..
Please bless our family with health and showers us with Your kindness.
Please protect their safety..please