Sabda Rasulullah s.a.w yang maksudnya: “ Sesiapa yang diberi suatu kebaikan hendaklah ia mengingatinya, sesiapa yang mengingatinya ia dianggap bersyukur. Sesiapa yang tidak mengenangkan budi yang diberi ia dianggap sebagai kufur nikmat. ” - Riwayat At-Tabrani

 Maaf ya Allah, selalu tak bersyukur....

 

Me: Selamat hari ibu, ma~ada syg mama
Mama: Tima ksih.ma pun syg kamu. 365 hari
Me: hahahhaha

*365 or 356 hari???*

Yeah I already gave patrick to a kid! So long patrick. we had a good time but I must move on, you should too

Wajib tutup kaki

 

I'm thinking of giving away patrick..you know maybe to other kids or to other people or kids. yeah kids.My roomate's child once saw my patrick and she kinda like it. but i didnt thought about it last time..maybe if she comes again, i 'll give it to her. Erm maybe i can drop it to a charity somewhere with other clothes. I'm sure patrick will find a happy one kid.

Tanda-tanda hidup kita tak berkat ialah : Taken from this site http://smartislam.wordpress.com/2012/02/10/empat-tanda-hidup-anda-tidak-berkat/

1. Duit banyak, tapi cepat jer habis.
Tak tau duit pergi mana. Pendapatan bertambah, tapi asyik tak cukup jer. Duit banyak dihabiskan pada benda yang sia-sia. Patutnya bila duit dapat banyak, sedekah pun kena la bertambah. Tapi tak, kita jadi makin kedekut. Sedekah tak bertambah, duit tetap habis ke tempat lain.
2. Buat kerja, tak siap.
Projek ada macam-macam, idea banyak, tapi satu pun tak berjaya. Macam-macam usaha dibuat, macam-macam projek kita cuba nak lakukan, tapi semuanya tergantung. Semuanya tergendala. Satu pun tak berjaya. Kalau ada yang menjadi, tapi tak seperti yang dirancangkan.
3. Buat sesuatu, tak dapat manfaat.
Baca buku banyak, tapi ilmu satu pun tak lekat. Nasihat orang pandai, tapi diri pun tunggang langgang.
4. Masa habis dengan sia-sia.
Kononnya sibuk, tapi sebenarnya banyak masa dihabiskan dengan perkara yang sia-sia. Leka main fesbuk, leka tengok TV, leka berborak dengan kawan, leka main game, leka melepak dengan kawan-kawan. Tapi nak luang baca Quran 5 minit sehari pun tak boleh. Solat pun akhir waktu. Solat tak sampai 5 minit. Zikir langsung tak amal. Malah nak berdoa untuk diri sendiri pun malas.

Pernah tak terfikir mengapa perempuan-perempuan yang bertubuh besar atau gempal lebih mahu memakai pakaian seksi yg jarang dan ketat?

Ingat tak masa subjek kemahiran hidup ada satu bab penyesuaian pakaian dgn bentuk badan, badan gempal disarankan memakai pakaian yg ketat sikit atau berjalur lurus untuk kelihatan lebih kurus. adakah ini berpunca daripada pelajaran di sekolah?

tipulah kalau tidak mahu kelihatan lebih kurus tp, melihat keadaan sekeliling, orang gempal lebih ramai mahu memakai legging, inner yg ketat dan baju yang ketat. Manakala orang kurus mmg biasa pakai mcm tu.Adakah rasa insecured di kalangan perempuan gempal untuk kelihatan kurus seperti orang kurus?

Dengan lambakan majalah seperti cosmopolitan, remaja dan EH!, adakah media telah berjaya menguasai pemikiran remaja@perempuan, menimbulkan rasa insecured dlm diri mereka dan akhirnya berjaya menguasai minda mereka untuk memakai pakaian2 tersebut?

Seorang kawan pernah berkata, dalam islam, yang pertama ialah aurat, keselesaan dan fashion. Fashion itu jatuh tempat ketiga. tempat ketiga.tempat ketiga.

Jadi berfikir.

I received a sms yesterday. Offer to sit an exam for jawatan pegawai pembantu tadbir dan diplomatik.
I dun feel like wanna go.

It's 30th April and tomorrow it's may. Time flies and no nearly 7 months I work as a research assistant here. Things are getting well and my experiments are getting well too. Except now I need to do lots of readings cuz the characterization part is coming non stop.

I go back home last week. And do you realize that, when we were teenagers, we were very eager to get out of the house? and then when we are working, staying outside, we would really want to go back home? I looked at my parents..they are getting old. I wish I could be with them all the time because I dont want to regret if anything happens to them. I give mom some money every month and last week she said, she dont  want to use my money and she keeps the money for saving instead. She refused actually to receive the money but I told mom,although it's not much but please let me train myself to be responsible. Please let me train myself to be responsible to you. I want to train myself so that when you're old, I would not leave you.

During Konvensyen bidadari dunia yg lalu,

"If you feel complete, no need to show off"

If you feel happy, no need to show off.

Doesn't mean I'm sad when I am quiet.
I am happy, I just wanna keep it to myself.

You can laugh out loud, trying to tell me you are  one happy person.
But hey, I got your point.

But let just be humble. :D

UPM Open April 2012

 Yes, I am no #17 again. Finally 

Dopple Cafe saturday :D

 Rosevelt

 Narmi

NArmi

Dear a friend of mine,

I am so sorry if you don't like me to be friend with A. You see, she is not what you always think. She is very kind. I remembered during our form 5 years, where i cracked my ankle during netball, she was the one who care about me. She bought me foods cuz I cant go to the canteen. She stays with me when I was in "emergency room" at boarding school. She accompanied me for few nights in the emergency room so that I will not be alone. I remember every bits of it.

Dear friend of mine,

It is really sad to see that you judge her. It is really sad to see that you don't know her kindness.
You will always be my friend, both of you

Hello hello~~ Morning monday! semalam balik rumah and abangngah balik bawak amsyar! pastu mlm dia bawak gi alamanda pastu dia ckp, amik satu barang. tak kisah kedai apa, harga berapa. tapi satu brg je. okayyyyy straight gi kedai nike sbb mmg tgh cari kasuttt kasutt nike lama dah uzuurrrr then kt kedai nike takda design baru.so pegi kedai al-ikhsan and i found this beauttyyy!

dari pandangan atas ececececece *yg benda dlm kasut tu still tak keluarkan lagi ahaha*

dari pandangan tepi ecececececece

sebenarnya tak suka sgt ada line hitam kt bawah tu mcm kasut skolah. tp most of design baru ada tu maybe nk tarik remaja kot but hey! 1st time beli kasut tak payah tgk harga! pilih-pilih

alhamdulillah, syukur rezeki!

Thank you, buddy

thank you buddy~ you told me several times you are not creative but hey this is pretty! thank you!

First Stage Yayasan Khazanah Interview Watan Scholarship

Hello, everyone~

Well, yesterday I got an interview (1st stage) with yayasan khazanah(yk) scholarship. At first, I thought it was an interview but actually it was an IQ test.

Overall for 1 hr and 30 mins, we have 5 sections, divided into: Reasoning, Analytical, Logical, Abstract and Numerical. If i'm not mistaken...

The tests are tense actually. Speed and accuracy is the most important things. You gotta be quick and the time will not be on your side. Seriously

The questions is easy, average and hard. So as you go through the questions, you'll find it harder and you need more time but hell~i left couples of questions blank dont have much time actually.

this is the odyssey hall in Mercu UEM near KL sentral

the person in charge was really really strict. if they told you to stop writing, you better stop. if not they will dismiss you. Yeah for real

well i dunno about my marks..we'll see about that. *urghhhh after balik terus collapse!*

Nisha in the house`

This morning, I went to the post office to open an ASB account :D actually I planned to open public mutual trust fund. but the starting payment to open an account is $1000 and then $100 minimum per month. But I dont have that kind of cash. So i thought of opening a ASB first then save bit by bit until it is enough to open a Trust Fund.It's not alot at the moment but I will try saving bit by bit till I reach the trust fund. And, if there is anything happens to me, I want mom to received my account. But anyway, alhamdulillah ya Allah for the rezeki~insyaAllah, I wanna keep this constant. And I need to save money for a conference this december. it's around $550. Seniors say we can claim back from the faculty but we have to pay first. So, hopefully I can reach my target. Need to be really berjimat-cermat for upcoming several months.

I just got back home actually. tak mandi mmg busuk nieh~I met Ain, she belanja me sushi king~ we never got tired with sushi haha thank you for the treat and thank you once again for the souveniers from singapore~

Last tuesday, I met sofwah! yeah she called me asking if I'm free that night. She was thinking of having dinner together because it have been a long time since we seen each other. We had our dinner at Ayamas chicken rice. And we talked alot really alot. It was interesting and I miss her already...:[ hopefully we can meet again someday..insyaAllah

i was browsing my notes on FB and I remember there is one note that I have private it. It's a poem. I got this on the internet and i tagged Linisha. it dated 14th october 2009. so here you go

Time, sometimes the time just slips away
And you're left with yesterday
Left with the memories
I, I'll always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time
I had you with me
Though we go our seperate ways
I won't forget so don't forget
the memories we made

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
and you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
while we were wild and free
Please remember, please remember me

Goodbye, there's just no sadder word to say
And it's sad to walk away
with just the memories
Who's to know what might have been
We'll leave behind a life and time
I'll never know again

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
and you were there for me
And remember, Please remember me

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
While we were wild and free
Then remember, please remember me

And how we laugh and how we smile
And how this heart was yours and mine
and how a dream was out of reach
I stood by you, you stood by me
We took each day and made it shine
We wrote our names across the sky
We ride so fast, we ride so free
And I knew that you had me

Please remember, please remember

I realized lately I don't write a lot. Yeah I am too lazy and nothing interesting ongoing. I blogwalking, I enjoy reading other people blogs. They have been true to themselves. Expressing their emotional feeling. Sometimes, when I read the posts, I can actually feel what the writer's feeling. Emotions are funny things. Perhaps, if we can somehow connect our feelings to others, the world would be in chaos.

It's hard for me to write whatever I want on MY BLOG. 'Freedom of writing' does not apply on me. Expressing emotions are limited. Long ago, some "people" would stalk my blog and when they Think that the posts are related to them, they will msg me, sms me telling me all sorts of things including all the insults.

After some time, I step back. These kind of people would always watch what you are writing and I dont want to create another mess. Enough is enough. So that's why most of my posts are pictures without the words. There are lots of drafts here in my blog where I couldn't post.

But I kept my old blog. I like to read back my posts where I wrote long posts and my expressions are genuine, I think so. But it's kinda sad also when I re-read post about my friend's wedding few years back how I was so happy for her but she got divorced. This is kinda sad.

But I want to write.Writings where I will not hurt others. I've sin enough. I know I'm going to hell anyway, but let's not make more.

so see ya hopefully I will be more semangat to write!

Well today I'm going to uitm again..because there are some problems with my sample...sgt pena each time gi uitm aiyo

[1] NEVER EVER look down on others. They might be far better than you

[2] NEVER take for granted the caring of other people towards you. You might won't hear from them again.

[3] In life, even if you need help, and the person you always help ignore you, NEVER ever repeat what they did to you. Help them. Even it is not sincere, at least you did care.

[4] Take lessons from bad experiences. If you keep falling for that, you didn't learn at all.

[5] NEVER let others decide what you want to do next, in life or in whatever decision except God, your parents and yourself. They might not put themselves in your shoes.

One of the way to gather all relatives in short notice: Funerals

After years of playing softball, i think softball is a mental game. I get nervous easily especially when I can't see the ball that the pitcher pitch. at that time i was like screw this Imma get strike out.

then when when during infield the pressure is too damn high. you gotta be alert on the ball and simultaneously react to where the ball is going. i hate it when it's time for me to bat, the pitcher makes me wait till i got real nervous then she pitch! and when it times to trick the batter, the pitcher can trick by pitching ball, strike, ball, strike. then when it is 2 strike and 2 ball, in your mind, damn damn only one strike left damn if i dont get this i'm out! this is the mental thing

sorry for the previous post where i only upload the pictures..too damn tired. muscle shocked tiba2 training now sakitttt

training was fun! yes indeed! before this it was pressure, training training and training..but coach changed...yes he actually more relax than ever..

and this morning dr janet called me asked about my progression...*feeling terharu* and then i msg-ed to dr vijay saying i'm going to uitm tomorrow for the mechanical strength. and he wish me all the best and good luck for the result..thank you Allah, i'm surrounded by really really nice people..thank you, Allah

Softball jyeah!

my new baby!

Cha(dum) cha cha(ta)cha(ta) cha(dum) cha ta-ta-ta-ta (roll) tsss(dum)

hat (bass) hat hat (snare) hat (snare) hat (snare) hat (roll) crash (bass)
ta-ta ta ta | ta=ta=ta=ta ta ta=ta=ta=ta ta| ta ta-ta=ta ta ta | ta ta=ta-tata ta-ta=ta|

ta ta ta ta-ta | ta ta-ta ta ta=ta=ta=ta | ta-ta-ta-ta ta ta | ta(0) ta-ta ta|

ta-ta-ta-ta | ta-ta ta ta-ta ta | ta(0) ta-ta ta | ta-ta ta-ta ta-ta ta-ta |

I dont know what I want in my life right now. How sad. Right now I am still thinking if I made the right decision.

Little girl...

A deep breath of unsolving mystery,

Crashed upon childhood memory,

“Oh it’s too painful to remember”,

“Oh it’s too awful to speak”.....

Little girl,

A lifeless body with solid emptiness,

A cosmic darkness of depression.

Little girl...

Your journey might not starts well,

But you can choose on how it ends.

tgh jemur kasut basah...kasut belah kiri tuh yg light pink tuh dah koyak..kalau hujan air masuk..

sayang sangat walaupun kasut bundle. rasanya pakai dlm setahun gak..thank you kasut, even sekejap dah banyak berbakti melindungi kaki. Thank you.

Kasut yg belah kanan jyeah still standing. dari 2nd ke 3rd year..tak ingat..beli ngan along kt nike alamanda. dah lama betul la orang ckp kalau qualiti bagus mmg tahan lama. tapi tak reti nak basuh dia sbb kalau basuh kaler die merah pekat dier turun.

thank you kasut sbb berjasa gak.

Walaupun letaknya di kaki, tp sangat berjasa. Terima kasih.

Long time no write..time is slow.specifically slow. Things changes...

today nora asked me the bomb question haha. She asked why I'm not with 'another' friend anymore *the previous one if you know what I mean~* Well I think she asked because I never told her anything seriously nothing.

And I told her that, we are hurting each other more if we are friends again. I don't know if I can say that "we decided to keep it this way" because if nora ask her, I bet she will tell that i am the one that tak nak berkawan semula. I bet she will say that. Trust me. I've been through this with her a lot.

This incident agak memberi impact. After that argument,seriusly dah tak nak rapat dgn sape2. Even kawan sahaja semua seniors or juniors or whoever, me treat them equally fine. I dont mind if seniors or people around me say that me tak pandai bergaul, kera sumbang or whatever. Right now I dont really mind. I dont want to be hurt anymore.

I wish i can be like farah, she told me right now she don't give a heck about friends anymore. I am strengthening myself. Yeah, I have only few friends, i dont have a lot like you. But i am happy the way i am. :D

Sincerely yours.

Sangat frustrated dgn research... Dear Allah, give me the strength, the courage, the will, the patience throughout this research... I'm so effing down..feels like everything tak kena...

pernah tak rasa even what good deeds u r doing or u did, feels like u r going to hell anyway??

Musicians does not born in a day~

yeaaa nampak tak nampak yessss my drumstickkk patahhhh cikgu sha main bantai sampai patahhhhhhh

Dear Allah, she's a dear friend of mine...

Bless her...

Shower her with loves..

Give her the strength to overcome this obstacle..

Give her the will to bounce back..

Give her the hope to see her bright future..
And most importantly, don't let her lose hope on You..

Amin, Amin, Amin.

I might be late, but go watch Million Dollar Baby. A masterpiece.

teringin nk pakai ladies shoes..tapi raya hari tu pakai sakit lutut yang amat..injured remember??

tapi lawakan iniii

adidas

nike

om nom nom nom lawanyaaaaa

Well said quotes~

Diam bukan bererti kalah...
Diam bukan bererti lemah...
Diam bukan bererti buntu...

Tapi diam kerana bimbang kata kata boleh memakan diri...
tapi diam kerana mengelakkan hati saling terguris...

Thriving Ivory Angels On The Moon

Do you dream
That the world will know your name
So tell me your name
And do you care
About all the little things
Or anything at all
I want to feel
All the chemicals inside
I want to feel
I want a sunburn
Just to know that I'm alive
To know I'm alive

Chorus
And don't tell me if I'm dying
'Cause I don't want to know
If I can't see the sun
Maybe I should go
Don't wake me 'cause I'm dreaming
Of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know
Never leaves too soon

And do you believe
In the day that you were born
Tell me do you believe
And do you know
That every day's the first
Of the rest of your life

Chrous

This is to one last day in the shadows
And to know a brother's love
This is to New York City angels
And the rivers of our blood
This is to all of us
To all of us

So don't tell me if I'm dying
'Cause I don't want to know
If I can't see the sun
Maybe I should go
Don't wake me 'cause I'm dreaming
Of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know
Never leaves too soon

Yeah you can tell me all the thoughts
About the stars that fill polluted skies
And show me where you run to
When no one's left to take your side
But don't tell me where the road is
'Cause I just don't want to know
And no I don't want to know, love

And don't tell me if I'm dying
And don't tell me if I'm dying
And don't tell me if I'm dying

Thank you michiko and naq~

Thank you ain for the chopsticks~you know i really want themm~

Naq's bday~

Venue: Sunset Bistro, Klebang, Melaka

Date: 1 Feb 2012

What a memorable day. Naq, thank you for watching the movie i made for you. Thank you for friendship since 1995. I wish you all the best in life and hereafter. I wish you lots of loves and happiness. I wish you the best for your future. You taught me some important things back then, you are family person. One thing always on your mind first is your family. I learned that. Now I am learning to put my family first.

Naq, thank you. :')